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audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed !

life and people is/are mostly unhappy if they could see it ! :o()

life and people are mostly unhappy if they could see it ! :o()

life and people are mostly unhappy if they could see it !

life and people are mostly unhappy if they could see it

stillness ain't quietude but the ability to look at what I say and utilize it !

life is short

life

is

too

life is too short ! ! ! ! ! !

life is short

life

is

too

life is too short ! ! ! ! ! !

life is short

I have seen so many writers with more potential ruin themselves with trying to fit what they write to some rather dull and screwed up zen way of looking at things, if you set that template down and just write direct and accurate to your own experience ! ...

nothing will make sense to you without solitary retreat experience, the thing is to get the experience without the distorting religious bullshit and zen is just as bad for that as Catholicism !

rokazulu on reddit zen asks

how do you stop thinking?

no one ever teaches you how to stop thinking and conceptual thought,
they just say to stop it

BUT HOW

my

it's observe what you think, not stop it !

thought can't stop because that itself is thought ! :o)(

in the end most of my thought revolves around some idea I have of fixing the world or people or situations, this is my simple pattern of being,
other people have other patterns..........:o)(

basically zen has two practices, the above which is called shikantaza, and a sort of puzzle solving or questioning , I don't use the phrase “koan study” because most koans are voynich crap, but wide ranging quality reading and a sort of working out how things are.............:o)

djed is the spine of osiris , the god of the dead and the underworld !

yeah you can argue there's a zen sense to that !!

lol kensho ;o)

obliviron on reddit zen asks

how do I get enlightened

seriously, I want to be enlightened, I don't want another train ride
through beautiful scenery that misses the stop

am I asleep or insane?

my

it's not a train ride but travel on foot through rough and dangerous country !

you have to leave the bullshit behind which you will never do so you will be one of the endless millions who waste their time wanting this fiction/real that cannot be had by them ! :o)(

enlightenment is going outside yourself, you just seek for what you want !

you (ed. reddit zen questioner) obviously are not familiar with the catholic mystic tradition, john of the cross, Teresa of availa, st. catherine of siena

zen is a form of the quality perennial mysticism as per these great saints

a benedictine retreat

the absolute in zen/Buddhism = god in chrisitianity

neither Buddha nor jesus existed as historical people,
both fictions out of very elaborate fairy tales ...................

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“ you see this gentle loving ‘ word ’ born in a stable while mary was on a journey, to show you pilgrims how you should be constantly born anew in the stable of self-knowledge, where by grace you will find me born in your soul ”

from the dialogue 157 of catherine of siena

negativegpa writes

my girlfriend always tells me I should stop and smell the roses

I tell her “I've already processed the roses”

my

she is a person of more sense than yourself !

negativegpa replies

that she is. what else am I going to do ?

my

zen is just a name, a boundary, but what is really of interest is the unboundarized condition !

I don't feel reddit zen is fake at all, people may be fake on it, but the way it works is to show zen pretty much as it is, however off putting that may be ! :o)

if you read the old stories it's not really that different !

authenticity is by and large rejected by just about everybody ! :o)(

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when I was travelling through zen centers, the only person I came across that I felt was “ authentic ” was toni packer and she didn't talk much to me at all !

there's not a lot to say, it's only the difference between people that makes something to say and reddit zen has plenty of that !

actually now I know more there's more I would have said to her, but really it takes many years to formulate things coherently !

she, even while I was there, was having health problems, especially diabetes and actually she was starting to lose her mental edge !

there's really no-one to converse with, true understanding is so rare and that's why quality reading is SO important, the wonder of being able to converse with sa'di, Emily Dickinson and charles bukowski by reading them and to be transported into the competent realm of people who actually understand and not get embroiled in the mad mass
that reddit zen is so in evidence of !

reddit zen is the living reality, but it's the conversation with these great minds of the past that is uplifting and illuminating and cannot occur in any other way !

also, one shouldn't derate oneself, when I post there is authenticity ! :o)(

if you get migraine , it's much better if it's without aura because aura means oxygen starvation in the brain's visual center !

zinc supplementation reduces serum homocysteine
and improves vitamin B-12 and folate concentrations

vitamin E should not be taken at the same time as oils like sunflower oil having omega 6 in !

“ vitamin E promoted the formation of an adduct , a structure that links a chemical to DNA, and which may cause mutations ”

β-carotene or vitamin E and smoking don't mix as they induce the polycyclic aromatic hydrocarbons in the smoke to form adducts with DNA !

an interesting study on junk food causing obesity which in turn causes fatigue/laziness !

an interesting series of lithographs of russia in 1872 !

nikolai ilyin (6th pic down) founded a new religious sect, the yehowists and was persecuted and imprisoned in the solovetski monastery because of that !

a terem !

mirrored from

over the years I have seen so many people turned into some sort of moron clone because they get stuck in zen and don't understand that what it's about is truly perennial to quality mystical religion and any quality poetry and literature !

“ for the snark was a boojum you see ” !

from eihei dōgen's shobogenzo

all evil is not exactly the same as what is considered wrong among us in the monastic community or among those in the mundane world, nor is it exactly the same as what was thought of as evil in the past or what is thought to be so in the present

and it is not exactly the same as what is considered evil among the lofty or among ordinary, everyday human beings

and vast indeed is the difference between the way that good, evil, and neutral are spoken of in buddhism and the way they are spoken of in the world of ordinary, everyday people

what is seen as good and what is seen as evil depend on the times
but time itself is neither good nor evil

what is good and what is evil depend on what thoughts and things they give rise to, but whatever arises is likewise inherently neither good nor evil

to the extent that thoughts or things are alike, they partake of good alike, and to the extent that they are alike, they partake of evil alike

nevertheless, while we are pursuing our study of that which is ‘absolute, supreme enlightenment’ , while we are listening to instruction on it, while we are training and practicing until we personally experience the fruits of realizing it, it seems something profound, something remote, something mysterious

we hear of this peerless enlightenment from our good spiritual friends
and we learn of it from scriptures

and the first thing we hear is, “refrain from all evil whatsoever”

if you do not hear it said to refrain from all evil whatsoever, it is not the genuine dharma of buddha: it will be the preaching of demons

you must understand that to hear “refrain from all evil whatsoever” is to hear what the genuine dharma of buddha is

my

eihei dōgen has a very indian style of verbal infill to pad out and make convoluted something very simple, that our notions of good and bad are flawed, that is the notions themselves are flawed and any implementation is an unsatisfactory dealing of a very mixed bag ! :o)(

it's not really a competition, with message boards all you take away is your own development, I am using him to develop, but he is not using me to develop
that's what and all it amounts too ! :o)(

within a month of posting here on reddit zen, you should be looking different, do you?

from case 5 of the cleary brothers translation of ‘ the blue cliff record ’

one day hsueh feng said to the community, “ on south mountain there's a turtle-nosed snake ; all of you should take a good look at it ”

thereupon wayfarer leng came forward from the assembly and said , “ if so, then there are a lot of people in this hall today who lose their bodies and lives ”

zen is much more about poetry than prose !

you (ed. dota2nub on reddit zen) don't come across well
dull, a bit stupid, entirely lacking imagination and verve ! :o(

try and develop yourself when you post !

that's really the whole point of being here !

you opinions and writing are gone in a couple of days, what remains is you, that can be some stupid self reinforcing opinion fart or someone who has moved forwards a bit ! :o)(

a prayer that will be answered

by anna kamienska and translated by stanislaw baranczak and clare cavanaugh

lord let me suffer much

and then die

let me walk through silence

and leave nothing behind not even fear

make the world continue

let the ocean kiss the sand just as before

let the grass stay green

so that the frogs can hide in it

so that someone can bury his face in it

and sob out his love

make the day rise brightly

as if there were no more pain

and let my poem stand clear as a windowpane

bumped by a bumblebee's head

my

i will suffer and die

not even the fear

o

f

d

e

a

t

h

abated

the ocean in coitus with the

sand

frogs in the

green

wet

grass

will buryme

without

love

the day will always/never arise brightly

in

it's

screeching

pain

a bumblebee

stung this poem !

:o)

a bodhidharma quote

unless you see your nature, you shouldn't go around
criticizing the goodness of others

there's no advantage in deceiving yourself

good and bad are distinct

cause and effect are clear

but fools don't believe and fall straight into a hell
of endless darkness without even knowing it

what keeps them from believing is the heaviness of their karma

they're like blind people who don't believe there's such a thing as light

even if you explain it to them, they still don't believe, because they're blind

how can they possibly distinguish light?

my

unless you have seen and conversed with infinity you shouldn't go around criticizing
the 7th zen patriarch , he is after all enlightened !

to deceive yourself is to be a double fool,
to be wrong and wrong about being right ! :o()!

good and bad are indistinct and depend on context and time ! :o()

cause and effect and the notion of cause and effect
are (unclear!) and hazy to say the least ! :o)

fools don't find out for themselves and weight their experience accordingly but regurgitate in an endless fashion the pap of other retards !

caught in their own egotism they remain in an “anti” realm
and don't doubt their (being!) (having it!) right ! :o()

One of the areas of contention with vaccines is getting too many done too close together !

dota2nub writes

finally you out yourself !

a perennialist !

my

a reddit askdocs questioner asks

I'm 22 F, good health

all my life, I've had a very sensitive, irritable stomach

I would get the runs every month, maybe 2-4 times a month

I started drinking a significant amount of coffee in October 2013

ever since, my stomach has been strong and my bowels RARELY EVER act up.

I think it is related because I can't find anything else that could have changed my stomach like this in just a few short months, and the coffee is the biggest change in my life.

what connection does this have?

my

from this study

“ coffee stimulates gastrin release and gastric acid secretion ”

microwave radiation emitted from 3G mobile phone
significantly induced DNA strand breaks in brain

lol, that's not very healthy ! :o)(

results conclude that 3G mobile phone radiations affect the brain function and cause several neurological disorders

there's no way you can understand “ the tempest ” without knowing the author was sir henry Neville !

a reddit zen questioner asks

I've read lots by alan watts, as well as some essential shunryu suzuki (zen mind, beginner's mind; not always so) , but i'm feeling compelled to read some d.t. suzuki

I've heard he writes from an enlightened perspective, and I'd like something that's closer to allowing me to experience zen directly, rather than an historical account of Zen, or an instruction manual on meditation

Thanks :)

my

alan watts was a drunken lsd fuck , shunryu suzuki was just plain fucked and d.t Suzuki was a Nazi sympathizer and raging japanese imperalist

read the cleary brothers translation of the blue cliff record and Emily dickinson !

my observation is misguided reading like the Suzukis and watts coupled with meditation drops you in a smelly stupid hole people never seem to climb out of !

you

just

experienced

zen

zen is a con designed to make idiots like you
waste their lives in some pathetic illusion of understanding ! :o(

whatthefuckiszen replies

you seem to say

1. zen is not useful for intelligent people

2. if one knows Zen, one won't waste life

3. zen means no understanding is possible

my

well of course we all think we are intelligent don't we ! ? :o)(

no. 2 I think is right,

no. 1 is wrong because people are such a crazy mix of stupidity and intelligence, that's is, there is really no base to measure on unless you are a cow ! :o)..'.}..'{

and no.3 is very wrong because there is an understanding !

good reply btw, you actually said something at least half right, so different from the endless avoidant bullshit posted here on reddit zen ! :o)

whatthefuckiszen replies

Let me see whether I get it right now

1. zen is not useful for all ‑ intelligent and the ignorant alike.

2. If one knows Zen, one won't waste life

3. Zen implies an understanding but how one arrives at this understanding ‑ the specific steps one takes to achieve this understanding ‑ is not defined

It is just a magic that happens

Much like how puberty happens in adolescent girls

It is just magic that appears from nowhere

4. It is possible that one's understanding of Zen wouldn't necessarily agree with another's understanding of Zen. i.e., Even though two people may claim a Zen experience the details, particulars and nuances of the experience may be drastically different.

There is plenty of proof for supporting the (4) even right in this thread

Do you hold the view that an existential crisis is essential for appreciating Zen?

my

zen is just about infinity in life, it's the same as the better quality mystical christianity and Sufism !

also mystical poets like Emily Dickinson and dylan Thomas !

and actually shakespeare's/sir henry neville's “ the tempest ” is very zen

the reason zen hit the protestant western world like a ton of bricks in the 60's is that protestantism has no mystical tradition, unlike say the Benedictines in catholicism !

I like your number three, yeah that's how it is !

including that pubescent girls are a form of murder ! :o)

the reality of true understanding is that it is very very rare, something you might get the gist of from the old stories, sort of one in a generation or something, so you are always dealing with the fact that just about everyone is pretending, that's really hard to understand and get and there's no real life company and your only compatriots are the dead, and that's who you have to read, sa'di, sappho, Heraclitus, Emily Dickinson montaigne and so on .......... :o()

basho and wang wei are the better part of zen reading, unfortunately zen is mostly an oral tradition, so what we know is transcribed and recorded with the inherent distortions and voyniching of that...........

there is some good stuff in zen but you have to be discriminating, like one trick with for instance the blue cliff record is the commentator wasn't enlightened, so be wary of his own bullshit, but some/many? of the cases are authentic !

it's sort of a big ask to make your way through it I can say ! : o)(

it's really hard to get, but you can certainly see it in reddit zen, but also real life zen, is 99.9999% just are totally insane on the subject and this is always how it has been and will be !

“ Do you hold the view that an existential crisis is essential for appreciating Zen? ”

well you know, that's jesus on the cross ! :o)

the catholics at least have got that right, they have a real person hanging there, not the blank shiny bronze cross of anglicanism/episcopalian ! :o)

my response to the surprisingly usual viewpoint that it doesn't matter who wrote shakespeare's works !

Thackeray wrote jane austen ?

stephen king wrote Gulliver's travels ?

hitler wrote the blue cliff record ! ?

since knowing about the author provides context, it's Hugely important !

I never really liked Shakespeare thinking shakespeare wrote it, he doesn't look right in his portrait as the true author and in fact he was an underworld “heavy” , because theatres of the time were also brothels of a sort, that's how you got his involvement with sir henry Neville !

when you understand sir henry neville really wrote shakespeare's works, his plays literally open up like flowers to understand them better...................... :o)

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I spent weeks researching the sir henry Neville question, you need to put a lot of work under your belt to get a clear picture................ but.............it............emerges ! :o)

“ people who had most of their daily exposure to even moderately bright light in the morning had a significantly lower body mass index (BMI) than those who had most of their light exposure later in the day, the study found

the earlier this light exposure occurred during the day, the lower individual's body mass index, the later the hour of moderately bright light exposure, the higher a person's BMI

if a person doesn't get sufficient light at the appropriate time of day, it could de-synchronize your internal body clock, which is known to alter metabolism and can lead to weight gain ”

“ over their lifetime half of uncircumcised males will contract an adverse medical condition caused by their foreskin ”

a reddit askdocs questioner asks

do people die from symptoms or the disease?

I was having an argument with someone who supports the theory that vaccines cause autism and they brought up the fact that people die from symptoms, not from disease

how true is this statement?

my

as the us government is paying out very large sums in compensation to vaccine injured children the answer is obviously yes !

neither vaccine manufacturers nor the government dispute that immune response injury can occur with vaccines, what's in dispute is what percentage of the population is affected adversely!

the tragedy is that there's a complete lack of biological research in this area and it won't be funded because research would provide evidence incriminating the government in a level of liability of the order of what the iraq war cost !

I am not anti vaccine, it's just a shame to see something with so much potential causing so much harm because basically the research funding needed to design better vaccines, tests for susceptible children, and safer combinations and schedules goes to adult diseases and children get the short shrift financially as usual !

there needs to be liability law changes before we will ever see any sense on the matter !

the crucifixion of dr. wakefield was a deliberate example of what will happen to anyone who places the government at any risk of expert evidence validating parents claims !

children are at lower risk of vaccine damage when they are healthy, there are less viruses around, the food is good, and there is some sun on the skin which is basically summer !

the sixth patriarch transmitted to the 7th patriarch in a vision

when you get enlightened, people only want to kill you, huineng spent a fair portion of his life on the run and was nearly killed several times !

basically the whole religious/monastic thing is bullshit, if you can show that it is convincingly which an enlightened person can, then the blind idiots only want you out of the way ! :o(

pepto-bismol contains the toxic heavy metal bismuth !

looks like a bad year for gastro ! :o(

drinking neat, freshly squeezed lemon juice helps with gastric flu !

ryōkan taigu in translation is an image of him and what he wrote, not his actuality !

the stupid donkeys bray before the miscast statues they call his writing/poetry like it's the real thing ! :o(

the translation is not ryōkan !

the real zen is a celibate tradition, it's way too hard to do with the suburban “wife and kids” , in fact it's wrong and “wife with kids” needs a quite different approach !

Suzuki is a case in point, his family and life got too damaged !

kobun was the same lol drowning with his daughter ! :o(

you can be a bit nutty celibate and it doesn't seem to hurt the same way, that's the issue with Suzuki, a bit nutty and it hurt him and his family too much, with his family responsibilites he didn't get what zen is right enough, celibate he could have been one of the great masters rather than spewing the 5/8ths arsed bullshit he did !

to do zen properly you are going to go mad, celibate you will survive, “married with kids” you just become a dull fuckwit in a bad mental space ! :o(

the big change is the explosion of non dual teachers which have pretty well taken all the zen audience

if you factor non duality - neo advaita in, being a teacher has become extremely competitive, thousands of teachers and a very broke audience

mostly teachers are personally funding the work that they do,
brad warner would be good example..................

it's actually financially ruinous to be a zen teacher...............

so in fact you are forced to the net in a centerless operation
because of its superbly low cost structure...........

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there used to be a lot more money around in zen
and young able bodied people to help build the centers

older people have huge health costs and risks now,
that's another thing destroying zen in the center model

“ the greatest is you, if you wake up to it ”

yeah that's the fundamental solipsist viewpoint which is correct,
we are the entire universe .................

I said suzuki roshi was a bit fucked in the head, it's apparent in his writing and talks,
there's something wrong.........................

it's just the usual screwed up soto zen “kids and family” , he paid an unfortunate price, but really it's only celibacy that has the freedom to look at what zen is truly about !

you have to be careful with fish and sea food because they accumulate heavy metals like mercury for fish and arsenic for shell fish

fish like large tuna and even moderate sized shark have lot of mercury in

I think steve jobs ate a lot of shrimp or high arsenic shellfish
and arsenic can be a factor in pancreatic cancer !

really I only eat fish/shellfish once every week or so and make sure the fish is quite small !

I think some people are pescatarian because it reduces iron levels, but imo it's better to donate whole blood (keep track of your Hb !) than convert your meat intake to pescatarian

a reddit askdocs questioner asks

loud banging in my head every night before i fall asleep. wtf

been going on for a couple months

can't move (sleep paralysis?) when banging is going on

how do i stop this?

my

I think it's a natural part of the brain shutting down for sleep process, but most people become unconscious at the same time and don't remember it !

something like a high quality krill oil for neural health and attention to the circadian rhythm and light color (red looks dark to the circadian rhythm) at night and close to bed may help

I did have something like that , but don't any longer so I really think it's a brain health thing !

you are insane

you are sane

sane and insane

the

endless

pain

!

florence welch , dyslexic and dyspraxic , red haired autism.................

a reddit askdocs questioner asks

I did not get sick at all during 2013 ‑ I've been sick twice in the last month. thoughts?

I worked in hospitality full time during all of 2013, at a very large establishment. I wasn't ill even once. the last time I was sick was during my last year of high school in 2012.

I've recently moved to melbourne (from albury n.s.w.) and moved into university campus accomodation. and I've been sick with a cold about 4 weeks ago, had a bad cough for the last month and now something worse over the last couple of days (full body soreness, sore throat, headache, running nose etc)

what gives? any thoughts?

my

Melbourne gets constantly pumped with new viruses by cruise ships and international air traffic (especially asians and winter fleeing americans and europeans) !

colder means the viruses live longer when out of the body !

albury would be a low viral city (except for the mosquito borne stuff !)

a reddit zen questioner asks

who are the great living zen masters of our day ?

suzuki, maezumi, and seung sahn represent some of the zen masters that defined zen in the west

who do you consider the equivalent today?

what great masters should an adept consider studying with?

my

seung sahn was the best of that lot, maezumi was a drunken womanizer,
Suzuki was a bit fucked in the head

apart from myself, the one's today that are sorta ok are (in no particular order) george bowman , diane rizzetto (I think she's getting abit old to be interested in new people!) , lorianne disabato , pierre tesuten and wayne coger (of the springwater center)

there may be a few others, possibly seon joon .............

as the 7th zen patriarch I have “sacked” or “deregistered” most of the rest,
the earthly transmission system is just generating conformist clods ! :o()

from experience and this is having stayed in several centers and had contact with quite a few teachers (yup even a phone conversation with joko beck ! :o) it's very important not fix on any one teacher, they all have different strengths and weaknesses, indeed one's approach should be what I call “ vampire zen ” suck a teacher dry and move on ! ............... : o )

but basically it's self taught and zen itself is just part of larger context, like if you don't read Emily Dickinson , you will remain crippled like just about all do in zen

the usual zen products descends slowly into madness ! ............... :o(

i write

dota2nub replies

does it? what for?

my

you will never be enlightened so you will never understand will you ?

it's odd, it's like a literal barrier, I can see you hit your head against it !

you are not willing to learn I am afraid, too up yourself, just another of the dead cogs that drift around in zen pretending what they do is real ! :o(

dota2nub replies

figuring things out again, huh?

my

yeah this is where you are going wrong, in fact there's a lot of figuring out to do, otherwise mentally vacant morons like yourself would know what they are on about ! :o) ^.. {

nothing new about this, you are exemplifying the old zen phrase of “ living in a ghost cave ” ! :o)

keep knocking your head don't you ! :o)(

dota2nub

who's knocking?

you keep seeing things that aren't there

have you ever taken a look?

my

you have to see both what is there and what's not there !

zen, or rather what it is about is both the real and unreal, paradoxically, retards like yourself who just plumb for a minimal reality through a wilful ignorance end up neither in a minimal real nor functional unreal, but an entirely bizarre and rather spaced out fantasy ! :o(

yoga attracts the mentally sub-normal !

how does it feel

to

be

insane

how

does

it

feel

to

be

how does it feel

kurt von hammerstein ‑ equord quote

i divide my officers into four groups

there are clever, diligent, stupid, and lazy officers

usually two characteristics are combined

some are clever and diligent ‑ their place is the general staff

the next lot are stupid and lazy ‑ they make up 90 percent of every army and are suited to routine duties

anyone who is both clever and lazy is qualified for the highest leadership duties, because he possesses the intellectual clarity and the composure necessary for difficult decisions.

one must beware of anyone who is stupid and diligent ‑ he must not be entrusted with any responsibility because he will always cause only mischief

my comment

i wish i wasn't all four at once ! :o()

i think the only way to handle reddit zen is not to read it, so i'm going to start to do that !

it's been sorta productive, but starting to go in circles ! .............. ! :o^. } ){ ! . } - - - . ! -

i think the only way to handle redit zen is not to read it, so i'm going to start to do that !

you are mentally ill (ed. dota2nub) and really creep out any board you post on, manic mad fucked in the head a hypocrite to your feeble bones .............

y e a h ! :o ()

the saliva tree , p13, by brian aldiss

he fell asleep early that night

in the early hours of the morning, nightmare visited him

he was in a strange city where all the buildings were new
and the people wore shining clothes

in one square grew a tree

the gregory in the dream stood in a special relationship to the tree: he fed it

it was his job to push people who were passing by the tree against its surface

the tree was a saliva tree

down its smooth bark ran quantities of saliva from red lips like leaves up in the boughs

it grew enor ‑ mous on the people on which it fed

as they were thrown against it, they passed into the substance of the tree

some of the saliva splashed onto gregory

but instead of dissolving him, it caused everything he touched to be dissolved

he put his arms about the girl he loved, and as his mouth went towards her's
her skin peeled away from her face. .

there is amylase in saliva !

“ people with fewer copies of a gene coding for a carb-digesting enzyme
may be at a higher risk of obesity ”

i asked mario falchi why he thought that more amylase leads to less obesity !

his reply

it is difficult to say what is the real role of salivary amylase,
it is surprisingly expressed in other tissues apart from salivary glands,
and pancreatic/salivary proportions in serum are about 50:50

also, it is not know whether it is deactivated in the stomach

my personal thought is that its action is probably not related to how much starch we break in the mouth, but there are two possibilities (that could coexist) :

1. breaking of starch into sugars activate signalling pathways that prepare the pancreas to receive starch endocrine/exocrine functions

2. reduced salivary amylase changes how some food taste ‑ e.g. starch is less creamy if there are low salivary amylase levels

creaminess makes food more appealing to people (reason why people love chocolate, ice cream, etc) .

lack of creaminess might change food preference,
with a shift towards more fatty food

this changes in food preference can also change the composition of gut microbiota,
which itself might also drive obesity

my

low serum amylase is reflective of metabolic syndrome and insulin resistance, it may be that there is some cojoining of the production of salivary and pancreatic amylase (at the level of genetic expression?) , if you have a problem with low pancreatic amylase then is there necessarily also low salivary amylase ?

“ low serum amylase is likely to be associated with obesity and metabolic abnormalities, which are often accompanied by impaired insulin action ”

mario's reply

yes, they are highly correlated (personal unpublished observations) , as probably their genes are repeated within the same block.

if you live long enough

everyone

an askreddit question

what harsh truths have you learned as you have grown and aged?

answers

that people with personality disorders never get better
they will remain as they are for evermore

learn how not to lie, skillfully...

silver linings are often tarnished

I'm only 22, but I quickly realized that women like to fuck you in more ways than one

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parenting pearl of wisdom

if children were born as teenagers, the human species would die out …
a natural form of birth control

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the key to maturity is figuring out the acceptable moments to be immature

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we are talking about harsh truths so.... sometimes, life's better gift is death

when you are on continuous endless suffering, death is a welcomed issue

it's pretty hard to get, but when you know, you know

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as a woman

your attractiveness has a very limited time frame

do not count on it for long term happiness

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don't put all your eggs in one basket is a good one that can be harsh

people die and then they're just gone

people will walk out of your life ‑ let them

the world is in dire need of a eugenics program

there are no truths, just shades of ambiguity

that there is no substitute for dialogue over lazy mood music

never be comfortable

all relationships that are not blood are transactional

schoolteachers give the worst life advice

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people don't change

don't expect your SO to change

they won't

this is more true the older they are

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life is so much easier if you just lower your expectations

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your parents are not as trustworthy as you thought

they are liars and cheaters like everyone else

and you have to be more careful about who you trust than you thought

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it's nearly impossible to not be hypocritical in certain situations

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there really is a difference about how you feel towards your step child
when compared to a child of your blood

even if you've known the step child and acted as their father/mother since before they could hold a bottle, the moment your own child is born, you'll feel it

no matter how much you try, your own child's actions will outshine your step child's

it'll be subtle

and maybe you won't consciously notice it

but it happens

and it's okay

as long as you treat them as equal as possible, this feeling will be just that, a feeling

just because they're pretty, doesn't mean they are not dysfunctional bitches !

:o) :o( :o( :o) :o( ! :o( :o) :o( .

v4

just because they're pretty, doesn't mean they are not dysfunctional bitches !

:o( :o) :o( :o( ! :o)

v3

just because they're pretty, doesn't mean they are not dysfunctional bitches !

v2

just because they're pretty, doesn't mean they are not dysfunctional bitches

v1

what I mean by mad is absolutely unable to make needed changes ! :o()

what I mean by mad is absolutely unable to make needed changes !

what I mean by mad is absolutely unable to make needed changes . . .

nostalgia is aging's lethal fire ! :o(

nostalgia is aging's lethal fire !

an askreddit question

what took you way too long in life to figure out?

answers

you can't reason with crazy and you can't argue with stupid

there is no absolute right or wrong in life

I can't get by without putting in hard work

how much it helps to sit down and think about how your day went

old people's ideas are our reality today. don't be fooled by them, think for yourself

get what you desire today, it might not always be there tomorrow.

stop giving advice to people that keep asking for it, but do the complete opposite

to shut the fuck up. I fucked up most of my relationships
because I can't be patient and just wait

sometimes there are things better left unsaid

that the longer you avoid dealing with serious problems ‑ they don't go away
or get better on their own, ‑ they get worse.

good credit is way more important than I thought. Poor credit can snowball, and sets you back years [ ... ] I wish I understood this significance in my 20's

breakfast, break ‑ Fast

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that no matter how old or wise someone may seem, nobody has perfected life
so just do your own thing and try to think it through yourself

don't just do something just because someone says so, or society says so
because everyone is still trying to figure things out

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failing is a fucking amazing way to get better at something, don't be afraid to fail

not all men are cheaters

ignorance and incompetence are almost always a more likely motivation for a person's actions than bad intent

you need to do it yourself

money is important . . . to, like, pay for stuff

that 'Sean' is pronounced Shaun and not 'Seen'
I actually thought people were called 'Seen'

that some men see 'kindness' as a 'coin' to put in a woman until sex comes out
and women see men who do this and take all their coins and laugh at them

there are some arguments you can't win, no matter how right you are

sometimes hard work doesn't beat talent

trusting in something for too long is a mistake

Hard work doesn't actually always pay off

that life begins at the end of your comfort zone

that girls have 3 holes

in the words of the great Ferris Bueller "life moves pretty fast. if you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it". I know because I have missed it.

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hiding your head in the sand just makes it that much easier for someone to kick your ass.

stick up for yourself and bitch when you need to.

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knowledge itself is power ‑ francis bacon

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I am 51 years old. I worked my way into senior management. I was making money like a champ. I worked 70 hour weeks and provided my family with whatever they needs, and often, just what they wanted

my marriage failed, my son won't talk to me, the career took a toll on my health
and I realized far to late; money is a vain and pointless pursuit.

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How much what I eat affects how I feel

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that no one is paying attention/looking at you as much as you think they are. they are all just focused on themselves, no one has time to look at your every action. you're the only one constantly paying attention to yourself. SO, don't be so self conscious and never worry about what other people might think of you.

this is more like my mantra to myself.

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you don't need a Significant Other to be happy

not waste my time with toxic people

pay attention to how much you spend / spend less than you make

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everyone fucks up !

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that I used to care way too much about what other people think

if you're too nice, the majority of people will take advantage of that and walk all over you

do not romantically pursue people who are already in relationships; it's rarely worth it

women. I can't say I have it all figured out now, but man
I was totally clueless for so many years

always read 'segue' in writing and heard 'seg-way' in speech. knew that they had the same meaning. then I saw a subtitle that spelled out 'segue' when the character said 'seg-way' Mind blown

you can't change someone, they need to change themself

debt enslaves you

under commit, over deliver

it's better to ask questions than to mess something up and look stupid
for not asking questions

cart wheel's are called 'cart wheels' because you put your arms in the shape of the spokes of a cart wheel

the key to success is learning to work when you don't feel like it

that percent meant per-century. which meant -/100

trying to get an English degree in today's world is not smart. wasted two years before figuring out this isn't what I want to do

odours are very important in social interaction

a quart is called that because it is a quarter of a gallon

that it's okay to be wrong

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it's rape the women steal the cattle

years of just piss poor banditing and, frankly, a lot of long dark nights of the soul
until I figured this one out

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for years I thought there was a diner in NYC called 'Tiffanys' and I was determined to go an have breakfast there, because I had always heard of the movie (but I had never seen or knew what it was about)

I saw the movie when I was eighteen and when I realized breakfast at Tiffany's
meant a Danish in front of a jewelry store, a bit of me died

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[..] finding out you don't share DNA with someone
doesn't mean that anything has to change at all

especially when that someone is an absolutely adorable two and a half year old

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that I shouldn't do anything out of obligation
I should spend my time doing what I want to do.

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for too long I was hanging out with people I didn't want to hang out with out of pity (people discarded by everyone else) and obligation (people I had nothing in common with, but had been friends with for a while)

once I got a full time job I realized how limited free time really is, and that sitting around with a bunch of stupid chicks gossiping about people we knew in high school was wasting precious time that could be spent bettering myself

_______________________

my self esteem issues aren't just irrational thoughts

it's my body's way of warning people that there's something wrong with me
so they shouldn't attempt to mate with me

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I learned way too late in life that religion doesn't solve any of life's actual problems

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that missing people is a part of life

there are tons of important people I miss incredibly badly, but will never see again

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realizing that nobody in my life will be around forever, except me

you have to find intrinsic happiness independent of other people or you are going to have a really tough time in life when those people are gone

______________________

men are always attracted to sexy women ‑ that's not love

women are always attracted to men who can provide for a stable family($/career) ‑ that's not love either

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1 Liter of water = 1 Kilogram of weight

not to cheat on girlfriends

I could have made more money and changed the world more by being on honest auto mechanic than by being a jerk with a philosophy degree

_______________________

great people are rarely famous

famous people are rarely great

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being alone is beautiful. just overcome the fear of being alone
and you will see how much your personality gets stronger

with no one else to influence you, you can be yourself
you will have time to learn new things and get smarter

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don't stick your dick in crazy...

the world is a difficult place, it'll kick you and break your legs while you're down

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I was 32 before I realized that if you piss on the side wall of winged urinals, you don't have any fucking splash back.

now, I hate any urinal without goddamn winged sides

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showing up is half the battle

The first time you do something, you are going to suck at it ‑ but every skill can be learned ‑ you just have to persevere

upside-down is called upside-down because the 'up' side is 'down' my mind was blown

itchy mouth can sometimes be a sign of an allergy

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if you work for someone else, unless you've been there for years or risen to management, they will pay you the bare minimum to keep you there.

if you work for yourself, you keep far more of the rewards

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that the life we all live in is just a machine to harvest the meek

that sex really isn't the most important thing in life

that unless you're very careful, alcohol will take a lot more from your life than it gives back

a vasectomy has that name because it is a cutting of the vas deferens

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if you've done something terrible, confessing will not make you feel better

it will only make others feel worse

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that my taste in men sucks and I should just remain single

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financially, live way below your means and stick to a budget

my wife and I now make six figures but are so mired in debt from previous poor decisions we're barely scraping by

credit cards, mortgages, student loans, home improvements, cars, dining out.. figure out just what you need and put the rest of your money away

keeping up with the joneses is completely and utterly meaningless

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the division symbol in mathematics looks likes it's dividing two dots

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there is no such thing as equilibrium in this world

things that matter need to be constantly maintained

you don't see this as a kid: you're born into a world where everybody seems to have things figured out, and there seems to be a working, more or less unchanging, system there for you to fit into (school, family, etc.)

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that if you hold ctrl and backspace, you delete a word at a time

realised this yesterday, and I've been using computers since the mid-90s

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that it's called a triangle because it has three angles

that life is short

making excuses is a good red flag that something is wrong

how much better it was to be young

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it is okay to be alone

some people don't need people around

some people are not meant for relationships, and that is okay,
they are very happy being single, etc.

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how to make myself a priority while still serving others

being alone is better than being with the wrong person

just because you can, doesn't mean you should

a bad day for your ego is a good day for your soul

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don't trust the people in power

they got there by crushing others

all takers, no givers

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masturbating to pornography has harmful psychological effects

I learned this one about 14 years too late...

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“ If you never do, you'll never know ”

you only have a limited amount of attention, and if you split it up,
the total will not be the sum of its parts

consequences

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there is no substitute for hard work

I'm still trying to learn that life lesson

_______________________

nobody is truly good or truly bad, everyone is in the gray

that there are people in this world that won't work hard in this world and still get ahead

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when to lie

I've always been an over[t]ly honest person thinking that
"honestly is the best policy" is actually true

turns out it's bullshit

no one wants to hear the 100% god's honest truth all the time

it only pissed people off or hurts them

it's taken me way too long to figure out when to lie

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being right about something can be a good thing

thinking you need to prove it to everyone else is not

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There, Their and They're

there, their and they're

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your reputation will always precede you.

you can't change the past

“ god's away on business ”

for some reason it put me in mind of the Russian film Kin-dza-dza!

chocolate jesus

well i don't go to church on sunday

don't get on my knees to pray

don't memorize the books of the bible

i got my own special way

i know jesus loves me

maybe just a little bit more

i fall down on my knees every sunday

at zerelda lee's candy store

well it's got to be a chocolate jesus

make me feel good inside

got to be a chocolate jesus

keep me satisfied

well i don't want no abba zaba

don't want no almond joy

there ain't nothing better

suitable for this boy

well it's the only thing

that can pick me up

better than a cup of gold

see only a chocolate jesus

can satisfy my soul

when the weather gets rough

and it's whiskey in the shade

it's best to wrap your savior

up in cellophane

he flows like the big muddy

but that's ok

pour him over ice cream

for a nice parfait

well it's got to be a chocolate jesus

good enough for me

got to be a chocolate jesus

good enough for me

well it's got to be a chocolate jesus

make me feel so good inside

got to be a chocolate jesus

keep me satisfied

tom waits is interesting , unlike the falsely abstract crap you posted !

you walk between the raindrops and remain dry ! :o(

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I've never listened to him before, but there's something in that song with the hammer on that stone block that really “resonates” ! :o)

when I say “ falsely abstract ” (ed. dharmabumzz's poem!) , it's because you conform what you write to “monism” , it's a false theory of reality and so you bind yourself into fakeness !

can you see you try to use tom waites with the song “ walking Spanish ” from his album “ rain dogs ” to bolster the authenticity of what you write.........

yet you haven't looked at or accepted the meaning of the song which is actually that life is crucifixion...........................

that is the truth of the patriarchs ! :o()

that is we are wet by infinity and seeing and not avoiding the crucifixion (you can't avoid it anyway) is the ultimate truth !

i write

“silent mind” is bullshit, glad to see ug calling the fakes on it !

dota2nub replies

silent mind is silent mind, but you insist on adding bullshit to anything

I guess that's your religion

my

crap artists like yourself can't be silent can they when shown up as frauds ?

it's sickening to see how crazy deluded you guys get ! :o(

sludge for brains , no self observation whatever !

dota2nub replies

there'd have to be claims before one could be labelled as fraud

you're claiming a lot, where do you get all your magical knowledge from?

have your crystal ball fairies told you the easter bunny doesn't exist yet
or will you cry once you find out?

my

when you know the easter bunny exists, then you will be enlightened, as it is you disbelieve ! :o(

the easter bunny sprinkles it's magic fairy dust everywhere, and holds its nose as it walks past the sewerage of “the silent mind” !

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the bluebottle and eccles 8'oclock sutra

the bluebottle 8'oclock sutra

99% of the people involved in anything are boring contentious idiots , including you !

what else

do

you

what's different about reddit zen is thanks to some “enlightened” mods it is not censored !

if it's rough stupid and abusive then that's what the real is !

when you censor, you walk away from truth !

99% of the people involved in anything are boring contentious idiots , including you !

what else

do

you

2:50

the experience of a silent mind... it's all bullshit (ug flicks his hand)

“silent mind” is bullshit , glad to see ug calling the fakes on it !

2:50

the experience of a silent mind... it's all bullshit (ug flicks his hand)

you have to go where you don't want to go, that's the hard thing . . . : o (

you have to go where you don't want to go, that's the hard thing . . .

you have to go where you don't want to go, that's the hard thing !

you have to go where you don't want to go, that's the hard thing : o)(

the brain of the woman is designed to breed !

: o ) . . ^. { ^. . . . {

the brain of the woman is designed to breed !

: o) ..^. { ^.. . . {

the brain of the woman is designed to breed !

the brain of women is designed to breed ! : o) ..^. { ^.. , . {

the brain of women is designed to breed !

the blackmores eco krill is very good for reducing cholesterol !

makes the brain work better too !

you probably need about 900 to 1500mg a day !

it has to be a good quality krill oil !

read this , it will really expand your horizons, you will see how dumb and moronic/stupid most of the stuff discussed on reddit zen really is !

i reply to kogen

you must be afraid to engage yourself !

I am puzzled ! :o()

a lack of control?

then i say further

no reply to my comment above huh this is the wall that stops you, you won't engage where you don't want to go !

this going where you don't want to go is very difficult and why basically zen is a celibate practice, relationship and family is a very different priority !

enlightenment is this process of stepping out of this world of semi certainty about being right that normality is, to the real world of just about always being wrong and working through this process of discovery to being righter ( of which “practice” is a poor mimic ! ) and this of course alienates you from normality and this is just how it is !

if you really do this, it's so rare that no-one will understand you and you will always be caught in a time warp of dissonance with the crap life people and all the religious and other bullshit the morons put over you !

you can see a thing again and again

but you just don't get it !

you can see a thing again and again

but you just don't get it ! :o()

you can see a thing again and again
but you just don't get it ! :o()

you can see a thing again

read alan watts and d.t Suzuki and you will be well set
to completely screwing your life up with meditation and pap !

go to it ! :)(

the zen motto is, “ stupid going in, a moron coming out ! ” :o)

do not do any sophisticated reading that makes you really question !

now you are all set for a life of fakery, pretending and irrecoverably ballsing up ! :o)

when you rattle the idiots, out comes the “troll” word ! : o )

when you rattle the idiots, out comes the “troll” word ! :o)

Chariklo is a comet-like miniature planet located between Saturn and Uranus. It has a diameter of 250 km and new observations show that there are two rings of ice particles and pebbles

rather fascinating ! :o)(

reincarnation does attract the loonies, I have noticed that ! :o)

a redditor asks

need help ‑ schizophrenia & pregnancy

my wife is diagnosed with mild schizophrenia on 2 months back

her symptoms includes hallucinations, listening to voices in her head, less sleep etc

however she is on medication & counselling

she is recovering very fast within 2 months because she now talks sense
can understand that she was hallucinating etc.

we are married for 5 years ‑ I'm 30 and she is 29

I just wanted to know due to schizophrenia, is there any problem can arise to the baby if she conceives?

Is there any risks to her pregnancy?

I am just being cautious

my

I would think that the medications and their effects on the fetus
would be an overriding issue with being pregnant !

Also you need to consider that a child needs 15 years or more of mom not relapsing into schizophenia, my personal opinion is that some people are too frail to raise children, it's a whole extra area of extreme difficulty that is best avoided !

the men often leave when things get rough, would you commit to taking over the care of both the mother and child ?

also the degree to which the schizophrenia is genetic needs considering !

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there's a lot of women having children that never should have, a huge social problem !

that link is recent research and one of several I have seen recently indicating a changed view of thinking that psychiatric medications do have a deleterious effect on the fetus !

you don't want to be blind to what is happening, there's a nightmare of damaged children and dysfunctional families being created !

my views on the problems of multivitamins are below

it's well known that there a lot of problems with taking inorganic minerals

the minerals we get from food are all bound to proteins (chelated !) and are thus safely absorbed through biochemical channels designed to accept them !

inorganic minerals like the seven seas formulation are basically garden fertilizer, they do this because the cost is 100th of what decent chelated/organically bound minerals cost !

for instance that seven seas formulation has a dangerous inorganic form of selenium sodium selenite that is associated with blindness, they should be using a combination of selenomethionine and selenocysteine !

the cells in the testicles have some degree of photoreception having the genes for photo reception expressed, same with the spine and brain, so the testosterone enhancing effect of strong sunlight on the testicles is due to sunlight itself !

if you can get animal testicles to eat which some cultures like the turks still do and so did we up until about 100 years ago, they certainly give a strong testosterone boost !

prostate artery embolization

the latest research shows that the chemical citrate ‑ a by-product of natural cell metabolism ‑ is mixed with water to create a viscous fluid that is trapped between the nano-scale crystals that form our bones

this fluid allows enough movement, or ‘ slip ’ , between these crystals so that bones are flexible, and don't shatter under pressure

[.. this nano-scopic layering of citrate fluid and mineral crystals in bone means that the crystals stay in flat, plate-like shapes that have the facility to slide with respect to each other

without citrate, all crystals in bone mineral would collapse together, become one big crystal and shatter ..]

it is the inbuilt shock absorber in bone that, until now, was unknown.

if citrate leaks out, the crystals ‑ made of calcium phosphate ‑ fuse together into bigger and bigger clumps that become inflexible, increasingly brittle and more likely to shatter

this could be the root cause of osteoporosis !

I think conflict is about separation or a parting of ways if it cannot be resolved productively !

the argument against the mmr vaccine is that measles and mumps if caught naturally within a year of each other have a bad combined effect and dr. wakefield expected the combined mmr vaccine to have similar issues !

imo some children are damaged, summer with a low time of viruses, better food and some skin vitamin D is a better time to be vaccinated !

it is not a black and white issue by any means and personally I have seen someone damaged by too many travel vaccines at once!

i'd wean very slowly off, calculate how much total alcohol content you have on average each day, then draw up a schedule reduction over say a month and keep to that!

you're an alcoholic you have to wean off and never drink again !

maybe even take two or three months !

no hard spirits, just wine and beer as they are healthier ! ?

also look at supplementing say 30 ‑ 50 micrograms of chromium every day ( no multivits - they are toxicially formulated ! ) as beer and wine are a good source of chromium and I feel that alcoholics are chasing that nutrient to give adequate brain blood sugars !

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advice to go cold turkey is medically unsound and very dangerous as alcoholics have a lot of changed gene expression which takes months to readjust, same with smoking !

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I got a lot more open minded about alcoholism from an interest in one of the all time great poets, charles bukowski who was an alcoholic from being a teenager
until the day he died at age 73 in 1994 !

“ everything compounded is impermanent

everything contaminated by delusion is suffering

all phenomena are devoid of independent being or existence

nirvana (the condition beyond suffering) is peace ”

everything compounded is permanent

everything contaminated by delusion is peace

all phenomena are replete with independent being and existence

nirvana (the condition of suffering) is roil !

“ everything compounded is impermanent; everything contaminated by delusion is suffering; all phenomena are devoid of independent being or existence; nirvana (the condition beyond suffering) is peace ”

everything compounded is permanent; everything contaminated by delusion is peace; all phenomena are replete with independent being and existence; nirvana (the condition of suffering) is roil !

brad warner is the sad reality of zen, he's self funding to perpetuate half-bullshit, way better to be a rich con like deepak chopra ! :o)

not zen?

I have these super vivid dreams of transcendence and I look at myself in the third person brightly illuminated, young and acting timelessly

it's always super sunny/hot in these dreams and peaceful

it's like I'm looking at myself/life without being in it

the person does everything, it seems like he's very simple, is having a great time living life to the fullest without worry or thoughts and I just observe the person in the dream

it has made an impact

I've been reading some zen books and the experience feels familiar

my

you are reading the wrong shit, you have programmed yourself to dream voynich !

voynich means nonsense or bullshit crafted to look like sense, you are more than familiar with that aren't you ! :o(

if you read crap and I mean 90% of what's on zen out there, you will regurgitate crap and this seems to be the fate of just about everyone in zen ! :o(

the big problem zen has, it is substantially an illiterate tradition, so you always come into problems of the accuracy of the transcription/recording and the hopeless perversity of the recorders who often can't take what is being said and modify it to fit their more conventional way of thinking !

people who do write , ryokan and hakuin are ok, dogen never got enlightened until his last years of life and unfortunately there's endless tomes of his unenlightened stuff, but even he has recording problems, you just can't get away from those idiotic monks of the stories !

to decode some of those stories , you actually have to be already enlightened to understand them, sort through the corruptions and get to what was really said

so in fact you need to do most of your reading outside zen, charles bukowski and Emily Dickinson are very good ! :o)

this will be water off your ducks back and you will no doubt continue to craft stupidity and voynich for ever like most do, so S a D ! :o(

the other big thing is zen is a celibate tradition, the stories come from celibacy and that sort of intensity of undivided attention and life, this japanese fucked suburban ‘married with kids’ zen is a bad dream........

some of the catholic monasteries are in fact more like what zen was than the pretenders of zen today !!!!!!!!!!!!!

the problem with your dream is it is a sort of parallel likeness and not identity, it's not entirely void, but so crafted with wrongness that there's no hope for you....................

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lol, I have made my suggestion, also I have a reading list

you guys just don't do anything, like look at that “ big silence ” video I linked !!!!!!!!!!

if you read authentic stuff then you will mold to it
if you read junk you will mold to that ! :o()

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catchadream asks (of another poster !)

is it ok if I ask an important question for clarification?

do you mean that I'm having these dreams and attaching to them (hence the sobbing) because this is what I would have liked my life to be like?

my

the sobbing is good, the problem is that you are sobbing over voynich, that is why you are sobbing ! :o)

the shit wit replies

you didn't address what the post was really about, but kept on rambling anyways [...]

my

crap, you farter and call it sense !

you were addressed exactly and you call it rambling ! :o(

you just can't admit it, calling bullshit up to your neck
“ golden sunlight ” you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no celibacy, no serious retreat time, just maudlin emotion and stupidity and you have the cheek/insolence to call what I wrote rambling because it discomforts you !

bruno zwass is not sorry for himself and you are which says everything !

you have no real feelings, just some sort of anesthetized vapidity ! :o(

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you are so fake you have no idea of any real feelings you have !

what's wrong with you man, your brain moves like sludge !

no life ! :o(

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catchadream writes

it's like the dreams are what I imagined what my life would be like when I was very young

but that is not the point

the warmth and brightness are the points I feel most important right now as it's just off the charts!

my

I'd say it's some combination of a degree of lucid dreaming, the brain not shutting down properly for sleep and some other neurological dysfunction/regulation problem

I use supplements rather than meds, this is what I do for sleep

you are away with the fairies I am afraid ! :o(

not even sad I guess !

catchadream replies

ok, I'm taking a “fresh” look

I now could possibly agree that it's hogwash...

I'm obviously very dim.

do you want to say something?

my

my advice is that if the brain goes then life gets fucked, as I said, I take supplements

do the biofilm/microbiome carbohydrate diet

my advice on improving sleep

try a good quality krill oil

narcolepsy and migraine-like headaches go together !

the orexin/hypocretin neurons in the hypothalamus are being lost!

narcolepsy is also associated with a very large increase (probably compensatory!) in the number of neurons producing histamine, a wakefulness promoting neurotransmitter

taking a good quality krill oil may help !

“ through constant grieving their minds became clear ”

of the physician's children in chapter 16 of the lotus sutra

holocaust survivor, bruno zwass's testimony

47:00

well this gave me “ moderate attention deficit disorder ”

a very good alain de botton quote !

self-pity is pleasurable only so long as you can believe life isn't essentially pitiless

Doctors don't write drug interaction websites either !

Basically the info is from the companies making the drugs !

Think of doctors as tradesmen and you will get a clearer perspective !

you are taking a chemical (ed. pristiq in this case !) designed by biochemists and the company employing them has somewhat (but very imperfectly) researched side effects with the help of a clinical trial/s

in addition there may be research , usually on effects rather than side effects of a particular drug, again not done by doctors but by researchers !

anecdotal accounts of users of the drug on the web are the best method of getting into the fine and actual detail of effects and side effects !